I’m just going to come out and say it…I’m FAT.  My BMI falls into the obese category though I don’t believe BMI to be an accurate calculation for these things.  I was turned down for life insurance through my hubby’s employer and THAT my friends, was a wake up call.

I was thin my whole childhood.  My mom generally cooked healthy things.  We never had white bread and she didn’t buy many sweets or garbage cereals.  She tried to instill good eating habits in us and I think that’s part of the reason I stayed so thin…that and running track and having a high metabolism!  A bad breakup in high school caused me to become TOO skinny.  I look at my senior prom pictures and wonder how I didn’t see it then.  I went off to college and gained a bit TOO much but I lost a little and settled in at a comfortable, healthy weight for the next several years.  I worked retail right after college and stayed slim.  Then, I got an office job and the pounds started to pile on.  I lost 10 pounds before my wedding and stayed at the weight for a little while but a desk job and comfortable life took it’s toll.  And then I had 2 kids plus 4 miscarriages so that’s a total of 6 pregnancies.  I would have to lose 75 pounds to get to where I was when I got married and even THAT weight is considered overweight for my height BUT I was comfortable at that weight and I think I looked good.  My husband tells me he loves me the way I am but this is about ME.  It’s about ME not being happy with the way I look and ME not being healthy.  He could stand to lose a few pounds too and be more healthy but I figure I’ll tackle one thing at a time.

So, after the insurance wake up call, I am taking steps to become more healthy.  I am NOT going to call it a diet because that’s not really what it is…it’s a lifestyle change.  My goal is to become more healthy and STAY that way and a side effect of that will be to lose weight.

After several different ways of eating I am going to take an approach that mimics the old Weight Watchers Core plan.  It focuses on whole grains, fruits and veggies.  It pretty much follows the food pyramid which I will also use as an aid.  I had already made a lot of those changes but would still veer off track a little more than I should, especially on the weekends.  So, my goal is to have only ONE day a week where I get off track.  I firmly believe that if you deprive yourself of everything bad, you will only fail.  So, I will allow myself my one glass of wine a night, if I want it.  I’m going to ramp up my water intake and watch my portions.  I’m going to stay away from processed crap.

One thing I have learned over the years is if I try to change too much at once, I get frustrated and quit because I get overwhelmed.  They say you need to make things a habit and generally, it takes 21 days for that to happen.  So, tackling my eating will be my first step.  Once I get those habits firmly in place, I’ll add the exercise in.  Luckily, I have plenty of options for exercise.  I’m lucky to live in Florida where the weather is nice enough in the winter and early spring to walk outside.  We have a treadmill for when it’s too hot or rainy to walk outside.  I also have a Wii and the EA Active and we have Exercise On Demand on our cable system.  I get Self magazine which often has great toning exercises which need no equipment.  I have signed up at www.myfitnesspal.com and added the App to my Droid.  I’ll use that to track my eating, exercising and weight.  I have also added RunKeeper to my Droid to track my exercise.  I was even able to upgrade to RunKeeper Pro for free and that made it even better.

I have already lost 5 pounds with the small changes I have made already.  So, like I said, that leaves 75 pounds to lose.  I am going to allow myself a little treat for every 10 pounds lost though I haven’t decided what it will be.  And I’ll update here so you can all hold me accountable.  I need all the support I can get!