I can’t believe it’s the middle of July already.  The summer is just flying by.  June was a whirlwind after school got out.  We had our beach vacation, Father’s Day, a trip to the Jacksonville area to visit friends and then an overnight trip to Disney for L’s birthday.  The next thing I knew, it was the 4th of July.  And now, I look at the calendar and realize school starts in less than a month.  Where did the time go?

On August 13, L will start 3rd grade and Buggy will start pre-K.  The next couple of weeks will be spent getting school supplies, clothes and shoes.  Buggy’s teacher has already called to introduce herself.  We’ll hear from L’s teacher closer to when school starts.  It’s hard to believe both my girls will be in school (even though Buggy will only be there for 3 hours).

I never thought I would have an opportunity to be a stay at home mom.  When we lived in CT, I had to work due to the high cost of living there.  I was only able to take 10 weeks of maternity leave after L was born.  I got pregnant with her pretty much the second we moved into our first house.  The house needed work so that was where a lot of our money went before she as born.  When I went back to work, I worked 4 days a week and my in-laws watched L one day a week so she only went to day care 3 days a week.  She didn’t attend full time until she was almost 18 months old.  I was glad to have that one day a week with her for that time but I still felt like I missed a lot.  So, when I had the opportunity to stay home for almost 6 months after Buggy was born, I took it (CT has VERY generous FMLA guidelines).  And I cherished that time with her.  I had no idea that 8 months later I would be leaving my job to move to Florida and I would finally have a chance to be a full time stay at home mom.

Once we moved to Florida, being home all the time took some getting used to.  It took me a while to get into a groove but I did do it.  I have to be honest, I wasn’t sure I was cut out to stay home.  I had always thought that I needed to work in some kind of capacity but I was wrong. I have loved being able to be home with my girls.  But all good things must come to an end and since they will both be in school this fall, it will also be time for me to re-enter the workforce.  The problem is, I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.
I worked in insurance for over 10 year.  B still works in insurance and I could easily get a job with his company but the one thing I DO know is that I do not want to go back to that…if I can help it.  I also got spoiled at my last insurance job.  I was able to work from home 4 days a week.  But, as I’m sure many of you know, legitimate stay at home jobs are HARD to come by.  So, not only do I have to get back into the work force, but I will likely have to go back to going INTO work rather than just walking to my computer.  My dream would be to earn money for my writing or social media skills but, so far that hasn’t panned out although I haven’t given up completely.  I thought about being a Virtual Assistant but I’m not sure that would work out either. 
I want to find something I love.  I want to be excited to go to work everyday.  I want to be able to sleep at night without worrying about my job.  I don’t want to only complain when I talk about what I do for a living.  Am I setting the bar too high?  Maybe I am.  Maybe I have unrealistic expectations of what my career should be.  But for now, I’m looking and I’m keeping my options open.  You never know what the future may hold.